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A personal blog is about putting yourself out there, being vulnerable & subjecting yourself to criticism. I have reached the point where I now find myself vulnerable.
I always considered myself an optimistic, confident person. I just want to live life to the fullest, filled with love, good people & great times! (All while looking fabulous of course!)
I've also always been attracted to the world of fashion & all things stylish. Because I wanted it to be perfect, I waited a while to officially start my blog, & when I did, I set very big goals & decided I will take this challenge head on, go from 0 to 100 in the span of one year (2016), to make up for all the time I missed out.
Sometimes, I tend to take on too much though and exhaust myself. Because I want to do everything! I want to keep moving! Sometimes we forget that there's a limit to our energy. There's only so much we can do. I was trying to juggle 3-4 full time commitments, including my blog, & I ended up exhausting myself.
In the struggle of moving forward continuously, I became submerged in social media, which was once my sweet escape. But unlike before, I now felt that it began to take over my life! I never let social media make me feel that way ever before. My goal when I started was to post good quality content, to grow in terms of my style & creativity. But somehow along the way, I fell into the rat race of quantity regardless of quality, following growth & exposure & oh, soooo much fomo, I can't even! My usual place of peace felt like it was disrupted into static noise. (can you relate?)
Because my blog picked up pretty quickly for such recent activity & my friends would encourage me by noticing the number of following I had gained in a little time. So I set my standards too high & didn't feel it was good enough and discouraged when I couldn't meet them. Also, the simple pleasure I once felt from just scrolling through my instagram feed, looking at well-crafted, beautiful images transformed into bland materialization. I suppose it comes with the territory. But I'm really not about that life!
So I had to step back & reevaluate where I was going & focus on what's important! All the little countless blessings god has bestowed on me & my sanity! And that my blog is just a creative outlet ( & a potential business). I'm still figuring it out as I go but I have to remember to enjoy it, instead of stressing over little things. I lost track of that.
I shall keep fashion my happy place, not a source of insecurities.
'No such thing as a life that's better than yours. So love yours' - J. Cole